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At Sea

by A Way To Survive

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Nicholas Nash I dig the vocal doubling/harmonies. Favorite track: No, But Maybe Soon [Feat. Christi Conger].
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1.
Tremors 04:20
I can feel your frail heart beating so fast It's clear you are afraid Your face is so pale, oh I fear you won't last Your fate is one I can't dissuade You fear for your life just as I fear my death I clutch you in my arms Your tears wet my chest as you quicken your breath We're alone, no alarms The shaking you see is not out of fear But fury that it ends this way The end of our time here was never so near This could be our dying day I pray that this won't last Longer than those gone past I hope you truly feel That my love for you is real Now I feel your heartbeat slow to a crawl Your frame collapses into mine The weeping has stopped, your last tear then falls Then off to a place divine I just hold you tight as I choke through the pain Of knowing that you're gone Now that my efforts were all made in vain What's my reason to live on? The shaking you see is now out of fear What if I survive this hell? What if my end is not quite so near? I deserve to hear a double knell I pray that this won't last Longer than those gone past I hope you truly feel That my love for you is real I can't feel my heart beat scarcely at all My heart now in my throat To death's shady figure I am but a thrall Above the earth soon I'll float Knowing I'll be with you softens the blow But still I feel a pit in my stomach Sitting alone on my personal death row I pray this terror not be chronic The shaking you see is out of control I'm a victim of circumstance The cards life has passed me have taken their toll I’m sure I never had a chance I pray that this won't last Longer than those gone past I hope you truly feel That my love for you is real My body's shaking has now all but passed My vision fades into white The pain that I felt here I'll surely outlast The ease outweighs the blight It’s now all in the past All the suffering we’ve amassed Our love will now anneal In our heaven we’ll find our ideal
2.
In my search for something beautiful Another mark was found A blight that fostered chaos In a mind once so sound Now seeking a less than subtle revenge An act that first felt foreign Before the years you stole from me with the light once held within Do you ever question why Only you are on your side Standing lone in blood-soaked soil? And if I find a better way To escape from yesterday Can I watch your world uncoil? On the verge of something pitiful Is where you're at your best Made up of only fractures and tears You fit in just fine with the rest But just because we've both earned scars Doesn't mean that they match I'd invite you to move on forward with me But you've anchored yourself in the past Do you ever question why Only you are on your side Standing lone in blood-soaked soil? And if I find a better way To escape from yesterday Can I watch your world uncoil? Seeing you now I can sense your fear But even so (I can't) stand you standing so near Your excuses thrown are paperthin But what's worse is that you believe them So I'll leave you to your delusions I surrender this war of attrition Do you ever question why Only you are on your side Standing lone in blood-soaked soil? And since I've found a better way To escape from this Hell you made I'll just watch your world uncoil.
3.
Sometimes I get the feeling, you're sitting next to me Other times you seem so far away Like canvas spread tight 'cross a frame, just about to tear Waiting for your brush to stroke my face Now I've survived some harsh life lessons, hope this one's soon past Cuz I've fought on for far too long, my tear stained flag half mast But I know I'll get through, in the end I find no shame in shipwrecks, much more than six feet down Knowing that the captain's down below But some find empty vessels there, and those I do abhor Knowing of the fear that took control For I sunk down, down to the depths and saw your silhouette Forsaking me and on your own, in the salty sea I wept Left dark, cold, and alone, where's the end? You came around with empty kiss and loveless touch Anytime you felt alone With knees and will so weak to your presence I fell short and down to you Trapped inside some empty house, it's no longer a home I haunt it as a living, breathing ghost There is no holy bastion here, to keep my thoughts from you Evenings still wear ever on, morose My bloodshot eyes burn day and night while staring straight ahead I can't accept the best has passed and left me here instead I won't allow this to be the end
4.
Some Days 03:36
Some days I wish I loved you less, you make it hard to sing Cuz your laughter sounds so much sweeter, than anything that comes from me But I can barely make it through the day without you here So please stay with me my only one, my dear My love. Is it still seen as a relapse, if what I've fallen into is beautiful? As beautiful as you I know that all good things must end, but what if perfection's eternal? Eternal like you (and me) Most nights I wish I loved you less, you make it hard to dream Cuz no degree of imagination can improve what's lying next to me I've come to love my threadbare blankets, they keep you from going too far When I need you, there you are. Here you are With me. Is it still seen as a relapse, if what I've fallen into is beautiful? As beautiful as you I know that all good things must end, but what if perfection's eternal? Eternal like you (and me) Each day I miss you more and more, it makes me wanna scream My legs and lungs burn so tired, but there's nothing on which to lean I know it's a fruitless battle, Time's currents can't be quelled But a memory shouldn't be abandoned, but held...
5.
Hourglass 04:06
Your hair down to the floor, head in my lap, I wonder what's in store For you and for me, let's pretend this night won't end eventually Couch moved to face the fire, but it burns cold beside the heat of my desire As flames dance in your eyes, I can't believe the beauty that with me lies Sand stuck in hourglass Gives hope that this will last And when I think of all that we've gone through I can't help but remember why I fell in love with you Your heartbeat matches mine, breathing in unison helps us slow the time I hold you in my arms, fighting off demons and keeping you from harm Lips pressed against my shoulder, makes your pulling away seem that much colder But you're right it's getting late, but I want you to stay, oh I hope you can relate Sand stuck in hourglass Gives hope that this will last And when I think of all that we've gone through I can't help but remember why I fell in love with you Moonlight gleaming in your smile, your shine radiates mile after mile Footprints trailing from me to you, half deep depressions tell me what to do Barefoot across the snow, we said goodbye but oh, I hate to see you go The night air sharply bites my cheek, but I'll stay with you, for you are all I seek Sand stuck in hourglass Gives hope that this will last And when I think of all that we've gone through I can't help but remember why I'm so in love with you You'll never have to be alone again I'm so in love with you
6.
Moments pass so quickly when you're rooted in one place Watching but never rising to make chase You gave me all the impetus I needed to get up But couldn't bring myself to budge Every day I wake and sleep on a New York timeline watching sunsets on west coast skyline And it's no secret that I long for you But you're long from me Why are you so long? So far gone... So long Nothing seems real until with you I share it all With good and bad news, to you I crawl With hardly ever second thought, or even first I feel you when I'm at my worst You, my heroin, save me Even as you cage me And it's no secret that I long for you But you're long from me Why are you so long? So far gone... So long I'm haunted by some strange demon singing psalms Sweat forms 'cross my pallid palms Just thinking of how I'll get away from it once more And scrape myself up off the floor Feebly I asked to be alone in my gloom Smiling she said "No, but maybe soon" And it's no secret that I long for you But you're long from me Why are you so long? So far gone... So long... So long.
7.
For so long, clear has been the goal That act that would bring peace to my soul But now achieved, I'm not so sure That this act of hope is the cure I've longed for Thoughts that for years consumed, my mind Will long remain entombed... In this shallow frame of mine And now this harsh rain in December Echoes well the chill within And could it be I've killed my happy ending? By holding too strong to love? Just as cities change once you leave them So too change the thoughts and fears of men But with this tragic proximity Such change is imperceivable to me These thoughts must be exhumed from my mind They've been too long entombed... In this shallow brain of mine And now this harsh rain in December Echoes well the chill within And could it be I've killed my happy ending? By holding too strong to love?
8.
The blood, sweat, and tears held in this mortar are what once gave it strength But now it's fading away These frail and weakened barricades, have long outlived their use Broken down and decayed (I'm afraid) These castle walls are made of cracks, more void than substance found At just a thought, they'll come tumbling down (all around me) And as they fall, I'll hear my name but the cracks remain the same Steady, calloused hands fail to find the gaps that welcome in the cold Perplexed, they suffer the chill Weathered down by constant storm, the roof's mouth wide agape Its words rain still, and always will These castle walls are made of cracks, more void than substance found At just a thought, they'll come tumbling down (all around me) And as they fall, I'll hear my name but the cracks remain the same Not all things that are broken are useless There exists hope for those that are lost Not all battles waged are fruitless Sometimes the highs are worth the cost ...the cost A single tremor shaking the floor upon which I once relied Has turned this fortress to sepulchre, Time has never taken its side Cuz these walls are made of cracks, more void than substance found At just a thought, they've come tumbling down (again) And as they fall they scream my name but the cracks remain...
9.
A raindrop, into an ocean of calm Its ripple rocked my craft some years ago With oars, dried and cracked from lack of use Empty words screamed at the stars, go unnoticed I'll go now Controlled not by my "fate" I know now The path I'm meant to create Rain falls heavier on those expecting the sun But even cloudy days have some light to share You tried to light a campfire on your own The driftwood that you chose, it burnt you Postponed now Your entrance to the fray All alone now You're searching for your way The storm has passed, with eye shut, moving on With roof now torn apart, the dawn brings in its warmth The breeze, turns from chilled to warmed embrace It dries the puddles at our feet, makes it safe to leave For sure now We've got a while to go But there's hope now For change, no matter how slow
10.
Chasers 05:15
You can't really call it "running away" if you're chasing after bliss But an open road and an anthem sung, can lead you far from all of this Sometimes the demons in hot pursuit have fangs that sink too deep But with three or four more tanks of gas, I'll be thrown back on my feet Hopelessly hopeful, I journey on (and on and on and...) Hopelessly hopeful, I carry on to find the day that I Alone can build my castle A comfortable vessel Home may be where the heart is, but that's rarely close at hand It's often found in a place unseen, far off the route that you'd planned But life's gusts of wind have a funny way of forcing you to stumble on Forward to where you're meant to be, battered and bruised, but strong Hopelessly hopeful, I journey on (and on and on and...) Hopelessly hopeful, I carry on to find the day that I Alone can build my castle A comfortable vessel Hopelessly hopeful, I journey on (and on and on and...) Hopelessly hopeful, I carry on to find the day that I Alone can build my castle A comfortable vessel Moving on

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A Way to Survive’s first official release, “At Sea,” takes place in the mind of a tattered man. Voyaging through his past experiences, this man seeks out understanding of self and others. Through the unwelcome awareness, he journeys on.

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released January 18, 2016

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A Way To Survive Salt Lake City, Utah

In January 2015, Curt Buckmiller casually said to Scott Hamilton, "We should start a band".
Scott offhandedly replied, "Okay".

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